December 8 Friday

B(spare)-Christine and I went to the shops, got donuts and sat in Topaz. Art-had to make a collage, looked through Life mags [the origin of 'Fuck' magazine]. Lunch-Ruth, Mike, Ralph and I went to the sidewalk on St John's, then Ruth left and we walked around. Near Woodworking there was the smell of weed. [Alan and I decided that we'd go either to his house, my house or Gillian's. I called Dave but he said he wasn't coming out tonite. I asked him about Diane and he said she was coming to his house. Alan called Gillian and Lesley-- neither of them were home. I called Dave again to see if we could come over + he said yes. At first I told Alan he could get a ride from my place but then I found out my father wouldn't be home till late, so we decided that Al would take the bus + I'd meet him at Fairview]. nite-went to get the Fairview bus at 6:35, it came at 7:25. [So I left for Fairview at 6:40 and got there around 7 + waited in front of Simpson's where we were supposed to meet. I waited there for a while. I walked thru the mall to see if he was there-- met Christine twice. I kept returning to the meeting place but he wasn't there. At 7:30 I called Alan's but he had left. I tried calling Dave's for the next 30 minutes but it was busy. I finally got thru and Alan was there. He claims that the Pointe Claire bus never showed up + that he took the Beaconsfield bus and didn't get to Fairview until 7:35, went to the meeting place, didn't think I'd be there + I wasn't at the time so he left. After hanging up the phone I went to Dave's thinking of all the [things] I'd say to him [Alan] when I got there [it seems I didn't quite believe Alan's story and felt like I'd been lightly dismissed as recompense for my loyalty in having waited around for over an hour. My anger over a trifling missed rendezvous also indicates my paranoia- I never felt secure in "the group", never felt completely accepted, and was extremely sensitive to any perceived slight] Went to Dave's, Ralph came [I stayed mad till about the middle of the night], then Lesley and Sandi. Listened to old 1950's music. Heather and Sue came in drunk. [Alan decided to come downtown with me and Dave. He had originally planned to go downtown Sat. night to see George London but decided now that he'd stay downtown after me and Dave left to visit him]. [Interesting. Considering George London was a nonexistent person (that Lesley and I used when we needed an excuse), what was I planning?]. Left at 11, got a drive with Ralph.

 

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December 9 Saturday

[...Dave called at 9:30 to say that he was leaving....I was eating when Dave arrived at 10:15. We left at 10:30 and got to the train station just as Alan was coming through the tunnels. He had to wait for a while [to cross the tracks] for a freight train. Our train arrived at 10:50]. Got the train at 10:47 with Ralph and Dave downtown. Went to Phantasmagoria [Ralph took pictures] [We stayed there till about 1:15 (I bought T. Rex, "Beard of Stars", Dave bought the T. Rex doubleback [this was the first two Tyrannosaurus Rex albums reissued as a double album])., then got the metro to Alexis Nihon Plaza [Looked at posters + then records (Shermans), then got the metro to Alexis Nihon Plaza [Looked at posters + then records (Shermans), then we ate at _________[?] a place called Greenberg's; see 28/12/72] , then to Cargo Canada. Did all my Christmas shopping there. Got the train home, had to stand in the entrance, didn't go in the car [We got on the metro again + got off at Peel which according to Dave was near Windsor station but we had to walk about 3 blocks anyway [obviously we boarded the wrong line at Atwater]....We had to ride the train standing by the entrance and once I almost fell out when we took a turn. Later we were able to get inside when it was less crowded].. We went to my place about 5, about 6:30 Diane came, then Mike. [Alan wanted to try out the pipe he bought at Cargo Canada so he called [illegible- Sandy?] to see if she'd bring him a leaf, she did]. About 7 Sandi and 2 others Keith and Debbie came with 3 leaves [of marijuana] which we smoked. Then they left. Everyone except Diane and I watched a movie, "A Shot in the Dark" (Ps-Danielle came), so she and I made a disgusting sandwich from almost everything (ick) [and we stuck the cover of a pack of A+P matches which said "Who Cares" in it. Ralph took pictures of it], then after the movie we threw it out [an upstairs] window [I'm sure archaeologists could still find pieces of the plate]. They left at 11:30.

 

December 10 Sunday

[Left for Alan's at 12:30 when Dave called on me. I was mad at the parents [?]. Got to Alan's at 1:05]. Dave and Ralph came over at 1:05, [Called home to see if I could stay at Alan's [for dinner] and I couldn't, + then Dave started bugging me so I went downstairs to the back [of the basement]. Alan tried to call me on the intercom. Then I went outside and dug up yesterday's sandwich and brought to Alan at the front door. Dave had left to meet Diane + they were coming later. Alan made a "Judy" doll from the Phantas bag. He then started putting tape all over me and eventually taped me down in the hall [yeah, you read right] and I was like that when Dave + Diane came back]. Dave went to meet Diane and I taped Ralph to the floor . Did things with elastics in our hair. Diane left at 5. Lesley came, went to the basement. Ralph left at 6, ordered pizza. Ralph came back at 7:30, talked about everyone in the group [which I wish had been recorded] [mainly Gillian, Abby, Andy, Diane + Chris-- in other words, just about everyone who wasn't there. Lesley left at around 9:30. Dave + I left at 10 to 10, got picked up [by my father]].. They left at 9:30.

Dave and Alan

Diane